No time like the present
The present is all that exists, the past is gone, the future is not yet found, but within the present we can change the past and the future. I used to think that it was best to follow your natural way; what feels right. Now I think that sometimes to improve on our past we have to do what feels difficult, and uncomfortable and pushes us outside of our comfort zones. Why am I saying all of this, I don’t really know, maybe I am attempting to write like I practice my art! You just start, it feels uncomfortable and often vulnerable; you cant see any outcome but you keep going till one appears. It is an uncomfortable state to continuously put yourself in, why do we still do it ? If you totally understand what you are doing, how can you create something new? But to expose yourself as not knowing what you are doing is a risky business!
To stand completely in the present, is to be the you, who you are now, not then, and not the one you may become. While I am involved in the practice of art, I search out this present state continuously, sometimes these present states seem to almost repeat themselves over and over again to form an image that we perceive ourselves to be; we feel like we have some kind of substance, it is almost like a security blanket! Maybe we sometimes hold onto to this a little too tightly. I feel that much of the art world reaffirms this, by urging artists to stay within the parameters, almost of a ‘catch phrase’ that describes the whole of their art practice. I think that this can be extremely limiting. I am who I am now in this present moment, my art will, I hope reflect this, but who I am tomorrow my be very different. I am a little bit of allot of things, and I am very reluctant to box myself in and overly define myself when expansion calls!